A bit blocked
I'm feeling a little bit blocked in my head in terms of what to write about. I've got some drafts to my left that I could complete, some coffee things I could write about, but actually what I'm worried about is that I've started to feel like my Fridays are becoming wasted time.
I've written about why I took these days off in the past, but there's a slight nagging feeling on why maybe I'm just bad at keeping myself motivated during these days. I force myself out to run, I force myself to code things here and there which is fun but always short-lived. I still just don't feel like I'm building anything worthwhile.
It might be because it doesn't feel like there's much worthwhile to build towards. There's war, endless rat racing, leaving me with things "to do" that feel superficial in the grand scheme of things.
I should go run and just shake it off. Probably when I get back I will feel motivated.
To that end, here's what I'm going to do today:
- Go for a run (minimum 10km)
- Order bicycle parts
- Kettlebell workout
- Roast coffee, bag it, label it
- Publish this blog post (when these things are done)
Evening update:
After feeling like I wasn't going to get anything done when I wrote the first part of this in the morning, it felt good to make a list and to work at ticking everything off as they got done. This worked better than I expected and I'm going to do this more, and somehow I even managed to make a ragout! Brains are weird.
